By SEAN CUTSHALL
I was officially accepted into the drug court program, and the realization my life is now being closely monitored, has been made clear. I've always thought, heavy accountability is something else to make me fall, just one more person to let down, but I have nothing to lose, and anything to gain.
Opting out of this program, and returning to the regular court system, might make sense for a lot of people, but for me it doesn't. I've proven everything there is to prove about misuse of humanity, and I owe it to myself to try something else. I've strung together many false positives with my life, cheap surprises of sobriety that never lasted, and I think it was time to give up the control. And,if looking up from nothing has any value, then I'm sitting on a gold mine. Obviously, with nothing to lose anymore, and, quite possibly, everything to gain.
